"loneliness is the human condition"
3:25 x Jun. 12, 2004
I realized something today..it hit me real hard...but everything seems so much brighter now that I have an answer. I'm mostly alone but that's okay right now. I want to belong somewhere. That's what I want most in the world. I don't want to be at the bottom of some pile or of some person's to-do list: Call Ashley. I want people to wonder what I'm doing and call me and try to get me to go places with them. That's just starting to happen again and I'm afraid that if I start to enjoy it too much or think about then it'll stop and I'll be back to what I was yesterday. Every day it gets better..There's an after party for prom now, and a bunch of people have asked me I'm going to it..excitedly, like they really want me to be there. So I'm done here. It doesn't feel all cute or comfy anymore..I don't know how to explain it. I like fresh starts. Maybe I'll get a new diary somewhere..maybe. Or maybe I'll find a new replacement Frailty...or some kind of forum that I can totally lose myself in. I don't know.
Thank you to all the people who made me smile..or left me a note or a guestbook thingermajig. :)