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3:41 x May. 22, 2003
I have no garbage can in my room. I threw it out. Who the hell throws out a garbage can?? So now I wish that I hadn't and just cleaned it so it didn't smell anymore. Or maybe I shoulda just barfed in the bathroom. I'm stupid sometimes. No more morning (all day) sickness though. joy.
I wrote Christopher a long long letter last night. Well, it was this morning I guess. I couldn't sleep. So I wrote and then ended up going to bed at like 2. I feel calmer today...less confused I guess. I'll just deal with being sad now till it passes...everything will get better I know it will. My tummy's smaller now. So are my arms. I think. Not that I care.
That's a fucking lie. I do i do i do i dooo. I had a tuna sandwhich just now...dave's mom didn't make me one. So I just had one here. Ashley's coming over tonight to see my babies. I have pictures of them now. I was showing everybody at school. I think we might go to the mall. I have two rolls of pennies. That's all the money in the world that I have. Pretty sad...
I hope Chris reads that letter soon...I know he's gonna call when he's done and it's probably gonna make him worry. He doesn't need that shit...he has exams soon. Shitty so do i. FOUR two hour exams...math, physics, chemistry and biology. I'm so stupid. I'm hardly passing anything anymore. Then I have two more. I'm so glad that I'm only taking 5 courses next year. Then I'm done...whoohoo!!
I think I need a couple bottles of water. byebyeeee